Metamorphosis

She left a beautiful corpse as she fled this spinning world.
Her soul breaking the confines of the mortal body
She treads on the twinkling of an eye;
suspended in a trice between tangible and eternal.
Blood cools within her shell-
in another realm her body transforms.
A melodic melody surrounds her
as a warm breath of whispers impart her soul.
Metamorphosis.
Tears stain her temporal shell
as she takes flight under a Mighty Eagle,
lifting her into a point beyond all horizons.

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One Last Fall.

Looking back at this road I've traveled, I see darkness.
I see eyes peering through the suffocating trees that block out sunlight.
Uneven ground- a ground where one stumbles and falls into the dirt and mire.

I hear voices, taunts.
These voices encircle me. They make me question and doubt.
There are silhouettes fading in and out, pointing fingers.

I watch myself stumbling along the path- tripping and falling.
Scrapes and bruises.
I see the tears falling to the ground.
I struggle to lift myself up again, with my own strength.

One last fall, and open wounds appear. A blow too hard to regain strength.
There on my knees, words attempt to escape my mouth.
Nothing but "God!" slips through.

Then a hand grips mine, so tightly.
This Savior gathers me in his arms.
He cradles my head close to his heart- I hear the strong rhythm.
I was once cold, now so warm.

He began to nurse my wounds.
He says, "Oh my child, experience me, I will carry you."
He picks me up, still holding me close to his heart.
He kisses my forehead.

I stared at his beautiful face.
I forgot the place I was in.
The determination in His eyes- He held me so close.
He carried me into light.

The path became smooth again and He set me gently down on my feet.
In amazement, I had no words. I just stared at His beautiful face.

"Remember my promises child. I will never leave you nor forsake you."

"Let Go"

Moonlight shown on the white ivory.
Within the dark room she sits on a wooden bench
Longing for someone to understand the confusion inside of her-
she turns to a longtime friend.

This friend does not ask questions, but hears the quiet plea within her heart.
There was a connection; fingers and keys.
The darkness encircles her- the world shut out.
A state almost like unconciousness sets it- only fingers dancing along the keys.

Longing to feel a higher power...
grasping something she can neither feel nor comprehend.
she cries out inside, 'God, let me feel something!'
Hidden behind the darkness of her eyelids, she escapes somewhere within her soul; for there she could surely sense her Savior's presence.

Thoughts- a whirlwind in her mind.
A struggle, a wrestling match, there before God.
'Take my iniquities Jesus! For they are weighing me down!'
'Why can't I feel you?'

Her fingers pound out on the keys, yet a beautiful melody arises.
Tears drip slowly down her face as she heaves.
A release.
There within the melody, He whispers to her.
The faintest words only the soul can hear:
"Let Go."

"I Heard the Voice of Jesus Say"

I heard the voice of Jesus say,
"Come unto Me and rest;
Lay down, thou weary one, lay down,
Thy head upon My breast."
I came to Jesus as I was,
Weary and worn and sad;
I found in Him a resting-place,
And He has made me glad.

I heard the voice of Jesus say,
"Behold, I freely give
The living water; thirsty one,
Stoop down and drink and live."
I came to Jesus, and I drank
Of that life-giving stream.
My thirst was quenched, my soul revived,
And now I live in Him.

I heard the voice of Jesus say,
"I am this dark world's Light.
Look unto Me; thy morn shall rise
And all thy day be bright."
I looked to Jesus, and I found
In Him my Star, my Sun;
And in that Light of Life I'll walk
Till traveling days are done.

Horatius Bonar(1808-1899)

Oh, why do I
Let myself let go
Of Hands that painted the stars
And hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart
Makes me forget
It's not me but You
Who makes the heart beat
I'm lost without You
And dying from me
*Barlowgirl

This Very God.

Fear.
Awe.
Amazement.

Who is this God seated on the throne; his robe filling this Holy Temple? Angels hide their face screaming "Holy, Holy, Holy!" Who is this God set apart?

I'm overwhelmed by his beauty, his glory- nothing could ever compare.
This being set apart; most High God, creator of this very universe knows me. He knows my name, he hears my prayers, he sees my heart.
Nothing can ever escape his knowledge; his gaze.

This very God who angels hide their face from- this very God who created the sun, the stars, the universe, this very God who rose from the dead- He knows me. He cradles me in his arms.
He carries me with his immaculate strength. Nothing can compare.

I kneel amazed- overwhelmed because I'm too weak to stand. Who am I to stand before my creator? Who am I?

I am nothing. My problems are nothing. My "good" is nothing. I am valueless. But God, my creator, makes me something. In his eyes, I am everything. He died the penalty of death to save me from the pit of hell. In his eyes, I am of value.

This is my prayer:
Oh God, Holy creator, who am I to kneel before you, to talk with you? You make me who I am- nothing else. Fill me with your spirit so that I may live this life you gave me with purpose; with passion and fire to serve you. Through you, I am of value. I love you Lord- you make beautiful things out of us.

In a World That Judges...

"God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him." John 3:17

One of the many things I love about my Lord and Savior is that he is a loving Father. I can picture him holding me close as we walk side by side. There is more than just one story in the Bible that paints the picture of a lost child coming home to the open arms of Abba Father- and you know what's so amazing about those loving arms? They don't condemn.

One thing I've been learning recently is that I need to be pursuing the qualities of Jesus everyday. I shouldn't be choosing which ones are the easiest to follow but working towards attaining the hardest. For some people, acceptance of anyone and everyone comes easy for them, and I admire that. I believe that sometime we get a little too high on the pedestal of life and forget to check our attitudes and actions.

We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God- every one of us- but you know what's amazing?
"Instead, immense in mercy and with an incredible love, he embraced us...he did it on his own, with no help from us!" Ephesians 2: 4-5

If God can do that and we call ourselves "Christ followers", than we should walk in that way also.

Hope is a Good Thing

"God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up. They're created new every morning. How great your faithfulness! I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I got left.

God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the women who diligently seeks. It's a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God. It's a good thing when you're young to stick it out through the hard times.

When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence. Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: wait for hope to appear. Don't run from trouble. Take it full- face. The "worst" is never the worst.

Why? Because the Master won't ever walk out and fail to return. If he works severely, he also works tenderly. His stockpiles of loyal love are immense. He takes no pleasure in making life hard, in throwing roadblocks in the way."

Lamentations 3: 22-33 (The Message)

Words of God

Utter peace. Silence. I wait in a meadow of calm- waiting for someone to meet me. Although I am alone- feelings of loneliness retreat. Streams of love surround me as I am warmed by unique rays of sun. This warmth doesn't retreat but fills me, leaving me satisfied. I can hear sweet symphonies rustling through the breeze, songs of hope. I feel like a curious child waiting to see what will happen next.

I doze from the complete exhaustion I'm facing and I fall; I fall into darkness where the loneliness and insecurity sets in again. The sky above is no longer visable and I'm desperately crying out for someone- anyone to hear my cry; my cries fall of the world's deaf ear.

Then through the darkness, I see a light coming towards me. I fall on my knees, but before I hit the ground I am captured and carried in the strongest arms I have ever felt before. These arms hold me close to a steady heartbeat and the comfort is unfathomable. He wipes away my tears and says, "Child, I'll never let you fall. I'll hold you so close for my eyes are upon you." He hid me under his wings and I listened to his beautiful voice as he comforted me over and over again.

Happy Mother's Day <3 I will love you forever and always Mama

Storms

Have you ever experienced a struggle in your life?
Recently my family and I have been experiencing a tough storm. Storms can be dark, cold, miserable. You feel like you can't see in front of you and if you call out, who will hear?
Storms can be overwhelming.
Throughout this time, feelings of loneliness, insecurity, anger, and sadness have crept up on me. Where do you go when you feel alone? Where do you go when you feel God is a million miles away?
That's when I would open my Bible and cry out to God to grant me comfort. Every time- he would answer my cry.

Psalm 63:5-8 "I hold on to you for dear life, and you hold me steady as a post."

Psalm 46:1-3 "God is a safe place to hide, ready to help when we need him. We stand fearless at the cliff edge of doom, courageous in sea storm and earthquake, before the rush and roar of oceans, the tremors that shift the mountains."

He gave me faith, hope and trust.
Things that I never thought would happen to our family were happening. I experienced weeks of darkness. I felt so alone.
The only place that I could run was to the open arms of my heavenly father. I would picture him carrying me when I had no strength and holding me close when I was alone. He gave me comfort to move on.
He gave me strength to forgive. He gave me strength when my dad had to leave our house. God carried me 100% through.
He started us on this spiritual journey and will continue to til the end. God is showing me to surrender completely to him- because he knows what he's doing.
"Lord, take it all because I can't take it any longer. All I have, I can't make it on my own. Take the first, take the last- take the good and take the rest. Here I am, all I have- take it all."

It's not if storms will approach but rather when and they may last a while but God is in control and will carry you through if you put your trust in him.

He Will Never Give Up On You.

There's no end to what has happened in you- it's beyond speech, beyond knowledge. The evidence has been clearly verified in your lives. Just think- you don't need a thing, you've got it all! All God's gifts are right in front of you as you wait expectantly for our Master Jesus to arrive on the scene for the Finale. And not only that, but God himself is right alongside to keep you steady and on track until things are all wrapped up by Jesus. God, who got you started in this spiritual adventure, shares with us the life of his Son and our Master Jesus. He will never give up on you. Never forget that. 1 Corinthians 1:4-9 (The Message)

Things I've Been Learning..

Surrender. Trust. In my darkest hour only one person can give me peace and hope. Complete surrender- not a quarter or a half- an undivided heart. When I doubt, when I'm broken- who's love will always surround me? Times of confusion, heartache- who will calm the storm? Who will lift me out of the pit of dispair? Who will bring me back and accept me the way I am- bruised and broken? Who leads me beside quiet waters and restores my soul? Times I've fallen from grace? Jesus Christ. All powerful; all knowing. He IS power, love, strength, forgiveness; always has and always will be.

Forgotten Letters..

Today I was going through a box of old letters, cards, and other random things that I keep under my bed. I was looking for something in particular to do an art project with but as soon as I started looking at some of the cards, I got side tracked. I found a little packet thing that my best friend made me when we were young titled, "Moriah and Katie; Best Friends and Trying to Stay That Way FOREVER!" It made me laugh and it hit me how fast time goes, it seemed like just yesterday we were coloring with eachother ( not like we don't do that now..but the majority of it was back then..). I continued looking through the box and found old pictures of when I was little and didn't know what hair products were..I found random notes from my parents saying, "I love you Sugars"," I'm thinking about you!" I found silly notes from friends and cousins and realized again how much time flies. I was still looking through at some birthday cards and ticket stubs and found a card from my Grandpa who passed away a couple years ago. It said "Dear Moriah, You are growing up really fast. Your special. Happy Birthday and many more. Love Grandpa Sears" I read it a couple more times as tears came to my eyes because I realized how much I miss him and how long ago that was. I didn't know I had that card in my stash but at the most unlikely time to find it, I did. Reading the card now, it means so much more to me; just to hear "Your Special" from him. It brought back memories of him and my grandma who died one year apart from eachother.I began to think, if something so simple as a card that says, "Your special" can make such an impact on me, what can it do for someone else. Reading these cards and notes of encouragment kind of gave me a sense of self-confidence- just knowing someone is there and someone is thinking about me. I began to think of what I could do for someone else, and what I could be remembered for when I'm not here anymore. If the simple words from my Grandpa can still encourage me today- I think it's important to leave such notes of encouragment to others right now. Words can make an impact; and when they are written down, they can be saved even after that person is gone. So I challenge you to be encouraging with your words- write someone a note or letter because you never know when they might need to hear it. Embrace today. :)Hebrews 3:13